The History of Love: Waiting for Life to Start

The History of Love, by Nicole Krauss: Waiting for Life to Start

I am currently reading the book "The History of Love" by Nicole Krauss. The book follows the trail of a manuscript called "The History of Love." It is narrated by the man who wrote the book, and a young girl named Alma Singer. The author, Leo Gursky, is a Yiddish man who wrote the book in Yiddish and it was about a past girlfriend and he didn't intend for his book to be published or read. After having about 1,000 copies published in Spain the book dissapeared. It was found and read by Alma's father who then died of cancer and he never told anyone about the book. Years later a copy comes back into Alma's hands and the book begins to tie them all together. The book studies the relationships people have with one another whether it's love, loss, friendship, or they are family. In it almost every main character seems to feel like there is something missing in their lives and they are looking for something. i think that in this they are waiting to find that something, and be able to start or restart their lives.

Since Alma's father died she lives with her brother 'Bird' and her mother Charlotte in Brooklyn, and although they don't know it, near Leo Gursky. I have gotten the impression that Alma was really close to her dad and was torn when he passed away, even though she was only six. It was the same way with Alma's mother who often doesn't leave her bed and although it's been five years is still heartbroken and practically refuses to talk to other men, especially if she really likes them. I think that she is scared to lose another loved one and is waiting for her heart to heal and to move on. I think this is something she really, really wants to do, but has no idea how to do it. She is waiting for someone to come along and show her that she can go on. Also, I think that Alma is waiting to have a family again. She often seems to be really alone and it brings her down. She wants her mother to heal and for them to be a family so that she too can move on and they can be happy together. Until then I don't think Alma kind find the strength to move on and so she is waiting for her mother.

Leo Gursky is waiting for a new life to come through love. I think that he wants his life to begin, see's no way to make it really start for him, and yet is scared of death. He is running in circles away from death, yet not taking a moment to stop and live the last few years of his life. Leo and his friend Bruno have specials signals like tapping the radiator so that they hear the noise in each others apartments that are one floor apart, to make sure that neither of them are dead. Neither of them do very much and usually stay inside. They are both so afraid of death that they do not take a moment to live. Also, Leo always remembers his past love and when he does walk around the city, love is almost all he thinks of. Although he won't admit it at all, I think he is searching for someone to love. He waits to find someone to love, because i believe he thinks that it will fill him with a will to live and give him something to live for. For example, he had a son with a girlfriend who never knew him, although he always kept tabs on that son, until his son died. For a while after his son died he became antisocial and it hurt him. Leo relies on needing someone to love.

In conclusion, in "The History of Love" I think that most of the main characters, Alma Singer, Charlotte Singer, and Leo Gursky, and some other characters are simply waiting for their lives to truly begin, or begin again.

Hiding From The Truth, My Sisters Keeper`

My Sisters Keeper, by Jodi Picoult: Hiding From The Truth

          While reading the book My Sisters Keeper, by Jodi Picoult I started to see theme where characters were hiding from the truths that were around them. I saw it in Sara, during the trial, and in Julia, when she starts to realize she loves Campbell again but doesn't want to, and lastly in Anna, when one moment she wants to go through with the trial and then as soon as she sees Kate she no longer does. I think that the idea of 'hiding from the truth' is something humans do naturally when something bad comes up, or a harsh reality kicks in, or something you don't want to happen, happens. I think that the characters are going through problems with similar ideas and find it easier to ignore iit that truly confront it, full on.

          During the trial, from pages 295 to 297, Campbell lists all the medical procedures Anna has undergone and also all the side affects or problems that could have occured in going through them. He also states blankly that Anna was born to live her life like this and genetically conceived simply to help Kate. The entire time Sara is trying to take what Campbell says and state it in different ways, to make it seem less harsh and true, and more harmless. For example, he says, "you and your husband decide to conceive a child who would be genetically programmed to be an organ donor for Kate, so that she could be cured?" This is definatly the truth and yet Sara tries to cover it up by saying,"Not the word I would choose, but that was the story behind Anna's conception" As if she id trying to play it down as though thats not exactly or truly what happened.  I think that this shows that if Sara had known for sure she had did the right thing, she would have no objections and let Campbell tell the court exactly what happened. Also,  the fact that she knows she made a mistake, but is trying to cover it up, to me shows her trying to hide from the truth.

          I also saw a the character Julia trying to hide from the truth. She had been in love with Campbell in high school, and they hen parted ways messily with Julia promising she would never fall back in love with him. They are brought together again through the trial and Julia is trying so hard to act as though she doesn't love him, yet deep down I think she does. On page 253 Anna asks Julia if she "thinks Campbell is cute?" Julia responds by basically freaking out and saying "What?" she then says "I could see where some women... might find him attractive." She is very jumpy and nervous around this topic because she doesn't want to say yes, and finally admit it to herself, or say no, because she and Anna both know thats not the truth. Also, on page 278 Campbell asks Julia to go out to dinner with him, even if its only because they need to talk about the trial. Julia panics and doesn't want to go. I think that she doesn't want to because if she does she knows she can no longer hide from the fact that she's in love with him. I think that the character Julia is another example of the theme of trying to hide from the truth.

         Lastly, I think that Anna is trying to hide from the reality that even though going through the trial is best for her it will kill Kate and make her mother incredibly disappointed in her. For example, Anna always tells Julia and Campbell that she wants to go through with the trial and is confident in her answer. Then later on, whenever she enters the hospital and is with Kate of her Mom she pretends that she's not going to go through with the trial, so that she can hide from the sadness and that will come from admitting the truth to them. 

          I think that in the book My Sisters Keeper by Jodi Picoult one theme in many of the characters and conflicts is people hiding from the truth, or what they're scared will happen. I saw this mainly in the characters Sara and Anna Fitzgerald and Julia, Anna's Guardian Ad Litem in the courtroom, and the relationships in the Fitzgerald family and between Julia and Campbell.

19 Minutes by Jodi Picoult

Reading Response 5: 19 Minutes, by Jodi Picoult

          While reading the book 19 Minutes, by Jodi Picoult I am beginning to think that maybe Josie can remember if she tries, she just doesn't want to. I noticed how she was reacting whenever people mentioned the trial or the shooting, how opposed she was to even talk about whatever happened on the day of the shooting, and the fact that she becomes uncomfortable, and a little sad, but mostly just uncomfortable around the topic of the trial.  Then, I also began to think about why would Josie lie about remembering the shooting, and pretend she didn't?

         I began to think that Josie could remember the shooting if she tried to, but doesn't want to, when she was talking to her mom about the trial. Her mom, Alex, began trying to talk about it  and Josie immediately curled up on her bed and told her mom she was tired and didn't want to talk. This would normally not be strange with Josie and Alex because their relationship is not very tightly knit, except recently Josie and Alex had been talking a lot more about there feelings, making it strange that Josie wouldn't talk to Alex about the shooting. Also, this shows me that Josie would rather avoid the topic, which is strange because you'd think that maybe it would help her heal and get better, and made me wonder why isn't she talking about the shooting? Another thing is that Josie is a little less sad and more uncomfortable, which I think shows that she may be lying about not being able to remember the shooting and is just acting strange because she knows that she is lying and possibly feels a little bit guilty.

          After it began to become clear to me that Josie was most likely not trying to remember, or at this point, maybe even could clearly remember what had happened, why would she pretend she didn't. I think that if Josie simply did not want to remember she may have lied because she was once friends with Peter and always felt bad about his being bullied, she may not have wanted to have to live with picturing him shooting and killing her friends and the people she loved. I also think that she could have not wanted to have to be forced to relive the day her boyfriend died before her eyes and re experience that nightmare. I also think that if Josie does remember clearly, I think she may lie because maybe while she and Matt, her boyfriend, were in the locker room she believes that if she had acted differently she could have saved Matt and is worried that people would blame her, and also that she might blame herself.

          In the book 19 Minutes, I think that Josie either does not want to remember what happened, or does remember and is pretending not to. I made this conclusions based of of her actions towards other characters and backed it up with reasons of why she would llie to everyone about remembering the shooting.

The Importance of the Peach Blossoms

          While we were reading the Drummer Boy of Shiloh, by Ray Bradbury, in class we brought up how much the peach tree and the peach blossoms kept on appearing. Even the first time I read the story they still stuck out to me. I knew that they meant something deeper than just being some peach blossoms and a peach tree. The author wouldn't have brought then back so many times if they hadn't been important. When I read the story again, I was looking out for them. I realized they appeared really, only in the most important parts of the book, and so I begin to analyze 'what they really meant' each time they were mentioned.
          The first time the peach blossoms are mentioned, is actually the first sentence of the story. The line is, "In the April night, more than once, blossoms fell from the orchard trees and lighted with rustling taps on the drumhead. At midnight a peach stone left miraculously on a branch trough winter, flicked by a bird fell swift and unseen..." In the next few sentences they introduce the main character, Joby who is the drummer boy in the Battle of Shiloh and they explain the fact that the men in the army are scared and waiting for battle. I think that the idea behind this mention of the peach blossoms, is how in such a harsh time where boys are forced to become men, awaiting possibly death, life can just continue for anything and anyone else. Like, the birds only a few feet away continue on ignorant to such hardships. I thought that this brought a light to the severity and reality of war, and this situation.
          Also, the next time the peach blossoms and the peach trees are mentioned is when Joby is flicked by a peach blossom. Right before this, Joby was crying about how he probably wouldn't make it through the battle with no weapon, even no protection, whereas the oter boys are scared but also wanting to be hero's and more confident. In our minds, whether or not we think about it, I think the idea of peach blossoms, or even blossoms in general, would be considered 'light' and 'happy' and certainly nothing relating to war and death. I think that the peach blossom shows the idea of the innocence and youth held by all of the boys no matter how grown up they've been forced to become. right after this the general calls Joby a 'boy' which because I was thinking of the innocence really stood out to me as further proof of the real idea of what the soldiers are.
          Lastly, the peach blossoms are mentioned in the last line. This is right after Joby has begun to accept that he may die in battle but either way he will charge into the battlefield giving everything to his army no matter what the cost. First, it stuck out to me that Ray Bradbury would close the story with the peach blossoms. He would obviously not do so unless it was important. I thought that they were supposed to have an effect of finality which, really, is what I got from reading that last line. I thought that not only does the idea of peach blossoms seem light and happy, but really just calm and peaceful. It gives you a sense that everything's going to be okay. When Joby falls asleep then I think that that idea of everything being okay and finality is how he appears to feel.
           All of these mentions of peach blossoms in the story, show me that they are really metaphorical and deep, which leads me to the fact that they obviously are important. To me they were almost like clues, they give you a little idea of whats really going on, without directly telling you, and leave you to really think about the rest.

Reading Response 2: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

Reading Response 2: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, by Jonathan Safran Foer.

By Maddy Stutt 809

         In the book Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, the main character Oskar Schell always follows his parents rules, until he finds an envelope with the word black written on it and a key inside. After that, he lies to his mom and continually sneaks out to try and find the true meaning of the key and possibly its owner and where it leads to. At first it wasn't clear to me why it meant so much to him that he answered all the questions brought with the key, and I have begun to realize that it is entirely about different aspects of his father

          In the book, Oskars father, Thomas Schell is killed in the World Trade Center. Before he died, he called home to speak to Oskar or his mother many times while Oskar was home alone. Oskar never picked up, and I think that Oskar blames himself for him fathers death imagining that if he had picked up his father would be alive. Later, Oskar finds the key in his fathers pocket in his closet. I think that one reason that the key means so much to him is that he thinks that the owes it to his Dad to solve the puzzle and its as though he may be able to be at peace with himself and feel less guilt after he finds it. I think that that Oskars fathers death is one aspect of his father that makes the key very important to him.

        I think that another aspect of Thomas Schell that makes the key so important are the stories that he used to tell Oskar before he went to bed. This is because he was always challenging Oskar and giving him mysteries to solve, and Oskar was in the middle of a huge mystery/story Thomas had told Oskar about. It was about a supposed sixth borough of New York City that Oskar wanted to find and learn about through clues from his dad. I think that Oskar thinks that the key may be one of those clues or may be related to another challenge from his dad. The time they spent together before Oskar fell asleep made the two incredibly close and meant a lot to Oskar and that's another reason why finding the story behind the key is so important to him.

        Lastly, I think that Oskars father's faith in Oskar is another important reason why learning about the key is so important to Oskar. Thomas Schell was a jeweler, and he always was telling Oskar, who wanted to be just like him, that he was too smart and special to do something like that, and that Oskar could achieve greater things. At the time Oskar never believed him, but I think that after his father dies Oskar looks back and sees how far his father thought he could go. Oskar thinks that by not proving he can figure out even the most complicated mysterys he is letting his father down as a person and this keeps him moving and makes it so crucial that he figures this out.

        I think that the reason learning about the key, whether or not it means lying to his mother, is so important to Oskar because of his father. I think that it relates to his fathers death, the stories he used to tell Oskar about, and his faith in Oskar.